It's been years (literally YEARS) since I've written anything on this blog despite my best intentions. I could come up with lots of excuses...IVF, having a baby, being sleep deprived, getting pregnant, having another baby...but really I just didn't have anything to say.
We did tons of projects in the house, but I found myself just wanting to get them done and not having any desire to draw out the process by documenting it for a blog. This is the point where I should apologize for deserting you, but I'm not going to. I would be lying to you and to myself and I don't believe in lying. I'm nothing if not brutally honest. I'm not sorry that I took the time to really LIVE the last two years. It's been a crazy ride. We went through IVF in order to become pregnant with Gus (which was a hard choice and worth every single minute of blood tests and injections) and then were surprised to learn that I was pregnant with Sofia without needing any reproductive intervention. Now we have two under two and a very active 7 year old. I'm insanely busy with navigating food allergies (Gus has 10), life with a baby (Sofia is 4 months old) and a toddler (Gus turned two a couple of weeks ago) and trying to be sure that Emma (our 7 year old) doesn't feel lost in the shuffle. I wouldn't trade a minute of it. I consider myself incredibly lucky that I am able to afford to be a stay at home mom.
But lately I have felt like maybe there is something that I want to say, maybe want to try to document a few of the projects we have going on, maybe I want to have somewhere to vent about how frustrating it can be just to logistically get Gus and Sofia in and out of the car- forget about in and out of a store!, maybe someone else will read what I have to say and feel a little less like they are the only one who feels like they are chasing their tail. Some weeks I'm sure that I'll have tons to say and some you may not hear from me at all. I'm not making promises this time around- not to you and not to myself- about how frequently I'll show up. But I am promising to always be authentic. If I'm taking time away from my husband and my kids, it won't be to waste your time reading a blog post about nothing just because I need to fill up some space and make some self imposed deadline.
I hope that you'll still join me on the ride...
